The principle of my liberation? Extroverted Impulse!

2005-07-09T00:44:00.000+08:00

choices, yet all the same
with a simple choice
all things will change
when i made my choice
my life changed

I choose to be a man
a man to a woman
an ordinary man
yet with extraodinary ways

I choose to take the mountains
with just my mind and soul
although i'm failing terribily
i never regreted anyways

I choose to love a person
but i knew i can't give all
yet i am giving my best
and with nothing short at all

I choose to lead
but with a dear price to pay
too many problems
yet too little time to spare

I choose to make you happy
but i sometimes make you sad
but i had always wondered
how never to make you sad

I choose to be with you
with all odds against me
with your past haunting me
with the mountains pressuring me
with my leadership hindering me
but never had i looked back
and choose not to love you

2005-06-25T00:33:00.000+08:00

all the skeltons in my closet
i've finally swept them clean
but i still wonder
why remories linger inside me
i've started life afresh
but when i'm alone
painful feelings still haunt me

feelings being played
by wicket souls
yet when they realised it
i was there to cushion
i saw too many
all too blind
if it isn't to much
i choose to be on the good side

its been long
too long
i have stood against the test of time
came out a better person
but yet
that hole is still deprived
would u guide me
and make me complete?

2005-06-07T21:48:00.000+08:00

My OPHIR diary

Another sleepless night, tossing and turning before i could wash all the senarios that could happen the following day up in the mountains. Its not easy being responsible for anything and everything but someone just has to do it. Its me. The week before was horrendous, the exco and I were all skipping lectures and make up lessons to get everything done and forsee potential problems. Working as 6 wasn't easy, we had our blow up points and fustrations but in the end we left early before 6pm on friday to get the our much needed rest. Saturday would be the test of our teamwork and planning.

Early morning, meeting at 7. Even before the school gates open, the ODACians we all climbing into the school through over the gates just to make it in time. Seeing that and making a funny comment was my intention but looking at them being so enthusiatic about the trip really made me feel that all the suffering during the planning was worth it.

Logistical nightmare begins. Unfortunately we didn't forsee the school's shutters and gates not being opened during that time so we had to deliver the stores and loads from the ODAC room to the parade grounds which wasn't easy. Alex, luther and the other J2 seniors were there to see us of and that symbolically marked the the independence from them. Everybody frantically packed what they could into their bags and for shu fen, the size of her bag was 3/4 the size of her but she picked it up and even wanted to carry it on but azhar was kind enough to help her out.

Off we go taking the bus from MJC to Tuas checkpoint. Supprisingly, malaysian customs were slack so not much time was spent there. We continued to breeze on to our stop over point where me, kim, hanyun, shu fen, desmond and amanda had lemon chicken noodles which tasted pretty bad. At least there was still the rammy buger to save me from hunger.

Back on the bus, armed with our poker cards, we continued to trip all the way to the ulu part of the mountian which we will take the longest route up to the square pool our base camp. While walking up, i had this weak feeling in mind. I don't really knew why but i wasn't very ready for this. Plus my heavy load, the steep steps really drowned my spirits. Nevertheless, the ODACians perservered on and this totally sparked me to carry on, as a leader, as a friend, as an MJ ODACian.

Despite the heavy load, i found myself "in the zone" after a few moments of walking. You know when people work out and stuff, they get used to the pain and then the pain and sensations become part of them making them feel adapted to this emotions? Yea, I was in the zone. Except my occasional beads of sweat irritating my eyes, i was pretty much diverting my attention before nature and the floor.

Finally we reached the square pool, our base camp for the next 2 nights. We showered and bathed and had a great time, only thing the ODACians weren't too pleased was the fact that i dipped my feet in the river upstream so they we basically bathing with the water that ran and cleaned my muddy leg =P Imagine the faces when they realised what i was doing!

Then came nightfall and dinner which i didn't eat much, was to busy supervising everyone that i kinda forgot of myself until it was too late to get any more food. Then came the best part of the night! Free time! Haha, i went to the girl's tent to talk to them and i had lotsa fun talking to them and getting to know them better, cracking jokes and stuff.

Second day laid the accend ahead. As always i have to clear the leftover area so i'm naturally the last man and boy does that suck! Can never seem to catch up or have enough rest! So everyone's treking and treking and i'm busy just keeping pace. However the ODACians were super supportive and kept encouraging me to keep up.

Then there we reached the summit and we saw the singaporean everest climber. Amazing! He took a picture with us and that was really awesome!

We went back to base camp and had campfire! Whoa, was cool, got patched up with shu fen.. haha, really embrassing. Oh well... dinner was great, lotsa dishes with rice.. haha... yea

So we set off back down the next day, more dangerous then the climb up cause of the weight and the constant feeling that you are gonna fall anytime soon. The ODACians made it down, no causalties! and we made our way back to singapore...

2005-06-06T22:15:00.001+08:00

Cute one, tried to get everyone's face in!!

2005-06-06T22:15:00.000+08:00

Fun in the bus, we are so rearing to go!!!

2005-06-06T22:14:00.000+08:00

Yea! GG and G string... i'm the g-string (only coz it rhymes with GG) and the 4 GG (garang girls) are me, joanne, hilda, han yun and cheryl. Reason being we did the vertical 90 degrees repel downwards without any harness. This is the shortest route and the most dangerous one and we made it!!!! we had to wait like 20 mins for the grp to catch up!!!

2005-06-06T22:11:00.000+08:00

And off we go with Full loads weighing tons and tons with everything imginable... some of the bags are almost 3/4 of the size of the carrier... imagine that! But nothing's gonna weigh these enthu and excited souls down!

2005-06-06T22:09:00.000+08:00

Another of Mr eric's wise breifing, he always seem so wise... =S haha...

2005-06-06T22:08:00.000+08:00

fun in the forest!

2005-06-06T22:06:00.000+08:00

Our campsite at the square pool

2005-06-06T22:04:00.000+08:00

SEE!!! Teacher's tent is sooooo spacious

2005-06-06T22:02:00.000+08:00

Haha, first night, i shared the tent with these girls... Talk crap all night but obviously my voice was so loud everybody wanted to know what i was talking about the next morning =P haha, cheryl, han yun chu fen and amanda!

2005-06-06T21:57:00.000+08:00

This is not the worst, although it doesn's seem very steep, ITS STEEP and we are going up hill (imagine downhill) :S See!!! All the potential ODAC instructors smiling, don't u feel like wanting to climb ophir with these bunch of cheerfully lame ODACians?? Well sign up at the OPHIR trip at the end of the year!!!

2005-06-06T21:52:00.000+08:00

MJC ODAC halfway to the summit. All look tired but never ready to give up! Whole gang with teachers. MR eric on ERic's (me) right, miss tan on han long's left and Miss Poh on jin hao's right!

2005-06-06T21:50:00.000+08:00

One of the many steep slopes of Ophir, more then 60 degrees incline!!! morris, lee chen, shaz!

2005-06-06T21:48:00.000+08:00

Hey!!! Wonderful shot of all the ODACians up close... 4th row, eric, morris 3rd row, melissa minghui, deborah, shu fen, amanda 2nd row, earth, cherly, han yun, joanne, hilda, sujata, simma 1st row, gladys, kim, desmond, azhar!!! MJC-ODAC chio bu and yan daos at their best even after 3 hrs of grueling trekking uphill!!! You just gotta love this bunch!

2005-06-06T21:44:00.000+08:00

The amazing view above Ophir!

2005-06-06T21:43:00.000+08:00

MJC ODAC CONQURED OPHIR!!! Yay!!! Amazing effort from all despite some of their very humble backgrounds in dance, drama, choir etc!! I'm really proud to have this chance to lead such a wonderful group up. They are definitely much much tougher then me! Hooray for ODAC! If you look closer at the person next to the red shirt (desmond) holding the flag, thats the mount everest singaporean climber! Imagine that! He happened to be there with us climbing!!!

2005-06-06T21:38:00.000+08:00

Oh my gosh! Can u imagine the sight and feel of clouds. We did!! =D It was a major accomplishment and all our fatigue just died away... Fantastic

2005-06-03T22:36:00.000+08:00

Tear gerkers...

I realise, everytime i watch a romance movie i'll feel really happy and emotional when the couple gets together. Which brings me to my next point, i'm seriously getting sentimental... Yea... Imagine that...

Tomorrow's ophir, the week before is a terrible nightmare, skipping lectures and getting all the stuff done before sat... Horrible, just horrible. Its really mentally and emotionally draining... Oh well...

Don't worry guys, i'll post up lotsa photos from ophir when i get back!!! hope you'll be grossed out by the huge leeches, envious by the camp food we brought and lastly inspired by the MJ ODAC spirit =D ODACians rule!

2005-05-29T18:23:00.000+08:00

Today, this time, a day before GP mid year, i'm blogging. Amazing. Haiz, i'm busy. Because...
1) gotta study for mid years
2) gotta manage the ODAC people
3) gotta hang out with my friends
so 24hrs minus all the time spent will give me 6 hrs left
thats the amount of sleep i have everyday.

This year, my birthday's gonna be super unpredictable... Hmmm... Oh well, at least if it does turn out right, i'm off to camp the next day, haha...

Okay, here are the dates...
4-6JUNe - MJC ODAC trip to Ophir, malaysia
10-13June - MJC LEADERSHIP TRAINING CAMP bukit timah MOE adventure center

haha... yea... I miss sec school days, wanna have free time!!! oh well... =D You guys wanna go organise something, do invite me kz!! =D

2005-05-25T23:13:00.000+08:00

foodie!!! thanks so much to angela and gang who prep the food, it was nothing short of delicious!! yum! maybe we should have a BBQ soon, what say 14/05?

2005-05-25T23:12:00.001+08:00

we seem to always end up bowling but it was really fun

2005-05-25T23:12:00.000+08:00

this is me being lame

2005-05-25T23:10:00.000+08:00

AJ 1\ex 14/05 at east coast, NO VOLLEY BALL but they brought their TUTORIALS!!!!

2005-05-25T22:46:00.000+08:00

So sorry i wasn't able to blog after such a long time. I'm mostly back at 10 and half dead not finishing my homework and sleeping when i get into my room. SO yea, as i said, going to JC and doing triple science was and still is the most outrageous decision of my life... Gotta live with it!
Some things that happened along this absence of blog

1) I was made ODAC president! yea, amazing. I was shocked coz that wasn't one of my choosen position so yea, utterly pleasantly surprised. * MJ-ODAC = Meridian Junior Outdoor Adventure Club

2) I got Bronze for my fitness test, ONE MORE PULL UP to sliver...

3) I failed my BIO test, 12/25 and physics test 22/60

4) My friends are behaving werid, they seem to be super busy

5) MJC soccer guys won VJC soccer guys!!! i was there running around the national stadium with the MJC flag when they scored their first goal!

6) REbecca is really helpful, helped me in maths and doing that meaningless selection exercise

7) AJ outting on monday was fun, meet everyone up but qiao wen couldn't make it :(

oh well, i need to organise my time better, i'm really burning out...

2005-05-07T19:37:00.000+08:00

the downside of unfortunate

OKay... I guess you guys know what happened to my specs right? Haha, for those who don't, MY SPECS sank when i capsized my kayak... =( those were kinda like my favourate pair of specs... Kayaking ONE STAR. Its not as prestigious as it sounds coz mostly people who take it pass it... Made friends with one of the instructors called michelle and reason being is coz my name is the only few she could remember =) HAHA... Wanna thank her for her time, a great inspiration to pursue kayaking.

A little recommendation from me...
Hope you guys know about PARIS MIKI OPTIQUE? Yea the optimist that is rumored to be expensive and branded... WELL perish that thought! Its the coolest optimist i've visited so far! On wed when i lost my specs i visited the shop and the sales lady was really friendly dispite my annoyed face (since i lost my fav specs). So i wanted this model of specs but that shop didn't carry that colour so they offered to express delivery from one shop to another. And whats more, the specs which is due on tue is fastforwarded to sat!!!! How cool is that? Saved me lotsa fustration not being able to see the lectures clearly!!! I offically love paris miki, plus their service is excellent! =D

2005-05-01T23:27:00.000+08:00

Hey Hey HEY! Today's ODAC outting at SENTOSA!!! WHOOHOO!!! Awesome! we played volley ball, swam, soccer and not forgetting the ever-so-handy poker cards! hehe =D had lotsa fun with out seniors and senior seniors! COOL MAN!!! Met new friends too!

2005-04-28T21:39:00.000+08:00

haha, BPS canteen, we were greeted with lotsa food, leftovers unfortunately... (left to right) justin, lai ing, ben, nayeem, wen jie

2005-04-28T21:37:00.000+08:00

photo quality not too good but its a photo with peterson... =D (left to right) me, alvin, peterson, nayeem, siling, ben

2005-04-22T23:16:00.000+08:00

And after the whole speech day thing, chen treat us to secret recipe and it was terrific! ben, nayeem,lai ing, wenjie were there too, super cool! i totally enjoyed it! =D so sorry i haven't updated anything recently so yea.. enjoy these pics!

2005-04-22T23:12:00.000+08:00

4E1 with miss tan wei na and mrs tan! miss 'em so much! but hey, its cool to see them again! look at how much they've changed

2005-04-22T23:10:00.000+08:00

in case u guys miss the school hall!

2005-04-22T23:09:00.000+08:00

Everybody came back for BPS speech day! i gotta SAC scholarship which is 100 dollars in popular voucher, its nice to see everyone again!

2005-04-22T23:07:00.000+08:00

this is what happens when u've got a camera and u are really free... shu fen and me! she's from ODAC! ODAC rox!

2005-04-22T23:06:00.000+08:00

MJC hall! haha, its totally air conditioned and confortable so we decide to take lots of photos while miss ester lai was talking... :p left to right, me, Wei chee (dunman high), ken (victoria school)

2005-04-09T22:27:00.000+08:00

Surgical bear, isn't it amazingly cute?? *beams* Its gonna be my compainion from now onwards, until i sit infront of the medical pannel pouring my guts of why i wanna be a doc! He's name is eric! =D

2005-04-05T13:34:00.000+08:00

A solid begining for a successful path

School? Pretty much routine and boring! I can't imagine the amount of repeated lectures we have to go through. Haiz. Well let see what can i say about meridian...

1) their comp labs are cool ! The seats are comfortable and the computers are functional =D (i'm now in it typing the this blog entry, and i don't need to worry about a thing as its completely legal!)
2) the teachers are really friendly
3) Their gym can be used any time of the day, just get the key and be in the proper attire and you could get a great workout all alone in the gym. Whole gym for yourself, for free!
4) Its a forty five minute bus ride from bishan
5) The food in the canteen is okay but terribily expensive
6) MJ ODAC is going on 2 overseas adventure trips this year
7) I've found loads of friends who have the same interest as me, doing adventure sports!!!

Well an update since the last blog entry, rebecca is still here in MJ =( (she really deserves better), i'm still deciding if student council is for me, my CCA is ODAC (most probably), i've made lots of new friends and desmond is in MJ and we are taking the same subject combi. Which brings me to another point, we are kinda always together, hmmm.... How can i get him and Nora to get together more often. I think its a terrible waste as he is now in the same school as her and not spending enough time with her. I really got this really werid feeling, i don't wanna be alone but also not tag along with the same person again and again. Oh welll, maybe this social skill will kick in soon when i REALLY need it.

I miss my AJ pals, the scholars, the muggers, the O2 OGFs, hockey pals, teachers especially larry lee lastly and most importantly, i miss 14/05. I would really give anything to be back among the best =D Believe me, they are a great bunch of people! I wanna see you guys soon!

Oh well, days in MJ is getting abit draggy, hope classes will form soon so i can get to know more people and know them better =D wish me all the best!

[Sufficent passion and heart-felt compassion for all man kind]
Docs!

2005-03-31T13:05:00.000+08:00

Eric's guide to sleeping on public transport!

Well as you all would now know already that i'm in Meridian JC =D Well, regarding that post by that guy who was so pissed with me for bad mouthing Meridian, he's here too and guess what, its just a prank! Des if u read this, pls post an apology letter! =p .

Okay today's topic is on sleeping on public transport! Its definitely a long ride from Bishan to Pasir Ris and i've got to take that travel every school day, back and forth! So... here is my experience on sleeping on the worst (and best) seats on public tansports.

1. Probably the best sleeping spot goes to the corner of each sead near the MRT train exits! The cool glass pannel makes sleeping sweet. Depending on your sleeping preference, you can choose between the left side and right! Totally comfortable and it guarantees a wonderful sleeping experience. (and the air con's great!)

2. Motion sickness? Same here. I too suffer when i get on buses especially when they keep stopping every 5 mins. ARh!! However, there is still hope! In the second on the list is sleeping close to a bus window! Although it vibrates really violently due to the engine, its still sleep-able for those who are tired and wondering between the twlight zone. =p

3. If you really can't get both of the options above, well next on the list is the row of seats behind the bus! Yep! Take a left or right seat, again, with your preference and if you can bear the horrible smokey smell and the radiating heat, its relatively comfortable... =D

Hope this helps all those bishan parkers who now have to travel far to pursue further education! when u gotta travel? Sleep! =D

2005-03-28T17:25:00.000+08:00

its settled

Terrible day. Waited the whole day for successful appeals call, but, haiz... Super sad now. i don't know what to think or do. Its 5.30 now, guess its either tomorrow or never. hmmm... i really wonder why i end up like this again, the last time was because of my laziness during primary school, but now? Studied quite hard to make it all work out but haiz...

Another lesson Mr. life taught me. Mr. life is really hogging on my tail in this period of my life, i wonder why. *thinks* Oh well, gotta go make new friends tomorrow, i hope.

let it [?] control ya! =D

2005-03-26T23:45:00.000+08:00

No turning back...

How's the new blog skin?? Gimme some comments, you can post 'em at the tagboad to your right.. Thanks! You bunch of people are really cool.

I've been reading this amazing book called "blink, the power of thinking without thinking". It has opened my eyes about our human behavour in ways i've never thought about.

Conduct a simple test on yourself, clasp both your hands together as you would during prayer and which thumb overlaps the other? Well, if your right thumb overlaps your left, you are a more of a left brainer. (i.e Me). If you left thumb overlaps you right means you are more of a right brainer.

Other examples in the book forces the deep conscious in me to think about myself. Which brings me to another point, we humans are really varied. The idea of character being embedded into blood is obsolete. Maybe at the end of our lives we can all fill in a questionnaire of how our minds work.

Anyways, the theme for my blog is LIBERTY! The power of doing stuff you wanna without restrictions! The reason for my out sudden urge for liberation? My flaring extroverted impluse to do anything and everything. Yep, i hope this continues, gonna get a digi cam for capture all these wonderful times in my life, hope you'll enjoy!

Don't think, blink!

Meridian...

2005-03-23T22:06:00.000+08:00

Its the college from hell...
Cut off of 12 points, comes Meridian JC, home of guys with poser haircuts, bags, shoes, colourful wrist bands and what NOT! I don't know if its my own fault for having a totally biased outlook at MJC before actually being there but when i was there lining up in our OGs i was utterly displeased.
I could not understand what was wrong with these people, the moved us with a snail's pace and keep draging and draging. I can't fanthom what they are trying to do to us or what is our program, all i knew was that it was horribly planned and super irritating.
I am totally put off by the whole college environment, i'm not sure if i'm staying, which i hope i won't but if i am i gotta adapt and face reality fast. Its triple science for me.
Luckily there was rebecca, i couldn't much believe it but yea, she was there with me thoughout this ordeal. So yea, gotta count my blessings. First time i saw her in 4 years, and we though we were going to be all shy and stuff but that evaporated when she shocked me ( i don't know how she saw me coming with her back towards me) and said hi. Oh, i guess its kinda cool, you gain some, you lose some. ( i lost alot)

2005-03-19T22:27:00.000+08:00

Oh gosh, the chain begins...
Tuesday is hell...
I can't believe it, why all this decisions and within such a short time?
haiz...
I wish by any means possible to do triple science in AJ (not really possible)
haiz...
Even my sentences are begining to fail me.
I don't get it...
Ahh.....
I'm gonna miss Dagda OGFs, Suri!!! haha, hua hua gong zhu =P (if i can't come back)
I'm gonna miss my dwelling DC (if i can't come back)
Ahh......
Should i turn up on tue at430?
hmmmm....
so many questions so little answers...
...
...
haiz..
maybe i should start my enteries with "dear diary"
thats beside the point!
Arh!!!
i'm arguing with myself
nevermind...
okay, i gotta go write a letter
important letter
VERY important letter
i wonder if my poems still rhyme
i guess i'll find out soon...

2005-03-17T22:46:00.000+08:00

time to pen down my thoughts...

I've learnt lots of life skills now a days. Begining to open up more doors and contacts :D As some may know, i actually lost my touch *hehe* ain't gonna tell ya what i lost. So after a day of ZEN, i knew why :D *yeah!*

Spoke to chen recently, he kinda made my self made dull future brighter again. The reason it selfmade is coz i didn't do too well but, at least now i know there's still gonna be a way out :D Still gonna be a doctor, its still emergency medicine, so maybe thats something for me to cheer up to :D

Lastly, OGF workshop is a smash! Don't really have time to sit around and rest, its totally fun and games with my exciting OGFs in DAGDA! Cool! always looking forward to the workshop.
There's this cheer which is really funny though, it goes like this

Guys: let me show you our babes
Girls: what say u say
Guys: let me show you our babes
Girls: what say u say
Guys: lai lai lai lai lai lai lai lai ~~~ ( means come come come ~~)
Girls: let me show you our hunks
Guys:what say you say
Girls: let me show you our hunks
Guys:what say you say
Girls: lai lai lai lai lai lai lai lai ~~~
Everyone: let me show you dagda
Everyone: what say you say
Everyone: let me show you dagda
Everyone: what say you say
Everyone: lai lai lai lai lai ~~~~

Werid huh? Normally you definitely feel unnatural saying this but hey! its the fun that counts.
Eric- proud advocate of mixed gender :D

2005-03-13T19:10:00.000+08:00

She could come for the Dinner!!! She's at the bottom right, isn't she pretty with her rosy cheeks :D

2005-03-13T19:08:00.000+08:00

Bowling trip! Yea! We had a day of class outing. First toa payoh for Pool, then suntec city after, is a whole time at Marina south for bowling and dinner :D top row: christine*, nick, me, ru xing*, yi ting*. Bottom, William*, Desmond, Benny and Alvin. I love this bunch! 14/05 rox! Too bad Qiao Wen* couldn't join us for bowling but...... . . * denotes ASIAN scholars from malaysia

2005-03-13T19:02:00.000+08:00

AJ family day! Super fun! 14/05 did laksa and broke even *snickers* top pic shows Mr. Ong patronizing out stall! Next is our stall and 14/05 in action. Desmond and qiao wen posing in front of the stall. Don't both of them look good together! *grinz*

2005-03-13T18:57:00.000+08:00

AJ during chinese new year celebration. Top row: me, miss soh (chem), Alvin, Desmond, Benny. Bottom: Alston (RI) and Nick (RI).

2005-03-10T22:42:00.000+08:00

AJ 14/05... Amazing, i get along with this group super well. Left to right... Benny (balaster hill), Alvin (SJI), Desmond (xinming), Edward (AI) and ME! haha... most of my times spent with them, a super fun bunch to be with!

2005-03-05T20:47:00.000+08:00

This is it, on a thin, beige, perforated at the sides sheet of paper writes my O' level results. Funny how all complicated things end off with a simple result *shrugs* :S Quite happy with myself, manage to surpass my expectations in some subjects but also failed to meet some too.

Here it is...
English A2
Chinese B3
E.Maths A2
A.Maths A2
Biology A2
Physics A2
Chemistry A2
Geog/SS B3

Summary...
6 distinctions (i'm still laughing my how silly i feel coz of all the lousy distinctions)
L1R4 10
L1R5 13
CCA points B3

On results day, Ben and I came to school really early to get the latest low-down. From Peterson's breif, Bishan Park did relatively well this time (all the credit goes to the drangon year batch of BPS!!!) So yea, we at lunch with him and caught up with old times. (makes me sound like i'm past 50) Anyways, during the release of results, we were all gathered at the school hall, nervous as usual.

Sidetrack
I saw yin, she still looks pretty and attractive. Still a little attracted to her. I learnt afterwards she didn't do as well as she hoped. I think all good things have to end, i'll probably not see her again and same for her to me. I just hope that you at least qualify for something you like. Don't do nursing, i didn't know it wasn't a good course. Follow something that will bring you a brighter future, you deserve it. I hope you haven't been to hard on yourself. Its been tough living alone, feels funny, feels so unlike me. You take good care, be safe.

Okay, i reached my first goal. My name was flashed out on the powerpoint slide for all to see. However, when i scanned for my name under the coloum of A1s, i saw the unmistakeable words NIL or NOT APPLICATBLE. I was devestated, my heart sank and i couldn't much breathe.

Peterson told me i had improved really tremendously, from a PSLE score of 210 to acheiving 6 (lousy) distinctions was an amazing feat that i should feel very proud of. Chen tried to lighten the mood for me by trying to convice me its all due to the standard (thanks to both of them, i didn't feel like ending my life) So yea, here i am, brooding over all that crap. I really hope AJC would give me a chance to further my improvement because there is no chance that i would do otherwise.

To the others stuck in betweenof mixed decisions, take your time to make the right choice. It really depends. However peterson told me something that i can't forget till now.

"Nothing in life is certain, when you grow old, you'll realise that it really doesn't matter what you choose now, just follow your heart. When the time comes, whatever the choice, the results will be yours to settle" Collin Peterson
(he can be really philosophical at times :D)

2005-02-27T22:56:00.000+08:00

Eric and Tigger were undeniably the greatest friends on earth. Ever since Tigger was given to Eric as a gift, Eric has always taken care of tigger as a girlfriend. Tasks like cleaning it up, giving it its nighttime kiss were all common to Eric as tigger's owner. In school, Eric and tigger were also inseparable, Where ever eric is, tigger is just a pencil box away, literally. However, never has eric felt so much pain and lost until at faithful day on Monday (17th of Jan) when he found out tigger is stolen. Driven to desperation, Eric lost his sanity trying to find his lost love. This is a story of losing the dearest thing to yourself and finding back true love with greater appreciation, this is the story of TIGGER – Lost.

17th Jan 2005
9.00 am
AJC - Classroom 111(chem. lesson)

Yet again, Eric is struggling with his molar concepts. It’s unusual that simple playing of numbers can always manage to confuse a person. Eric succumbed to the convenience of writing the equation down, after countless of attempts trying to solve the question mentally but what followed was unthinkable. He found a strange note with some scribing
“ WHAHAHA, I stole your tigger figurine! =P….! catch me if you can… and IF you know who did it. From Theif (wrong spelling) –Thief- “
Those are the exact words which haunted Eric’s sleep for the following nights that came. Devastated, eric stared in blank space with contemplating the worst case scenarios and flinching every time these scenarios ending up with tigger being executed. The day passed without much event but in eric’s mind, the worst has already happened.

21th Jan 2005
10.10am
Home – Bishan

A whole week of lessons passed and Eric did not even have a hint where could tigger be. The kidnapper didn’t show his/herself until, or so eric thought. A mysterious e-mail was sent using a phony address…
"When You Read This, Be Very Afraid! But...!Please Do Not Panic!Your Tigger is safe 'n' sound in my hands.Of course~ i'll release the hostage when the time comes... ( IF the time comes, that is... )To ensure the safety of tigger, i demand a ransom!Leave 50¢ in the big pot of plant [ 3rd from the left, 2nd from the right ] at block 11. That is the block behind us when we assemble at the AJ square every morning. I didn't say when as in what time, so wait for me to give instructions be4 you carry out the task. Don't act w/o my knowledge.Do not! I REpEAT! Do not dig a hole and bury the coin!! I want to see it lying nicely on the soil... If i do not see my ransom on monday, you will not see your tigger on monday.It's a pretty fair deal, ain't it? yea? *chuckles*well, i'll talk to you again sometime. for now, happi hari raya haji! =)yours sincerely,Tie Â±iGGeR-gappEr"
Reading this sent shivers down eric’s spine. He may never see tigger again.

28th of Jan 2005
12.00 noon
Outside classroom 1112

Mysteriously, a letter was passed to eric during one of his interchange periods by Billy. Although confusing, eric definitely knew what was required of him by the kidnapper. To play a game, win and tigger’s life is spared, lose and eric will never see tigger ever again. Pushed to a decided path, eric had no choice but to follow.

Series of clues in order of gameplay

Billy to eric

Next clue “throw a pack of tissue paper on my face”
Person clue “it’s a pity he’s wearing shorts”

This clue was easy, but there are 3 in eric’s OG wearing shorts. It didn’t matter to him! The clue was easily done when Guojun threw a tissue paper on eric’s face. Faced with shame and embarrassment, eric strived on with the next clue

Eric to guojun throw a pack of tissue paper on my face

Next clue I want haribo

Also easy, eric breezed through because Gerry is the only person who is really obsessed with Haribo.

Eric to Gerry I want haribo

Next clue splash water on me!

Now this is weird, Eric was really skeptical, wondering if the clues could repeat themselves. Despite the nagging thoughts in his head and sheer desperation Eric tired his luck on Guogun again but failed miserably and consequently ended up soaking wet.

Nonetheless, Eric found Hong Kai who spared him of a rainy day and gave him the clue

Eric to Hong Kai splash water on me

Next clue fujiwara
Anime queen was easily spotted and the clue was easily obtained. Cindia was extra nice to Eric, giving Eric the strength to carry on the search!

Eric to Cindia fujiwara

Next clue your uniform rocks!

With new found respect, Eric was disappointed yet he felt redeemed when he said this to Yu xin. The fact that Eric had participated in criticizing yu xin’s nanyang uniform had profound emotional impacts on him. However, with due sincerity in speech, eric could move on knowing that yu xin would not hold any grudges against him again. Renewed, Eric kept up his spirit to find tigger.

Eric to Yu Xin your uniform rox!!

Next clue V = R I

Although Eric studied triple science, this clue had eric fooled. However with Liang hao’s help, Eric manage to decipher that V = RI means I’m supposed to look for Gary (not the snail)

Eric to Gary you’re a nice guy

Next clue the nicest uniform around

Yes! It’s the cedar uniform. Eric knew it before consulting anyone. Since the clue is not repeated, Eric found Jeslyn, however, the game took an unexpecting turn. The rest of the clues were not made! Eric held on to the image of dying tigger in mind and waited.

Eric to Jeslyn nice uniform

Next clue “someone in the band’s brass section

Shan is a nice OGL and Eric will forever remember her! Eric managed to get the next clue easily

Eric to shan can I kiss your toes

Last clue “it’s a picture of cute little sam with his cat high uniform”

Sam made Eric shake hands with Eunice, one of Sam’s friends. Eric completed the task with ease and obtained the final clue! A key with a pink band around! However, finding the correct locker wasn’t easy, Eric, together with a few friends searching the locker room but to no success. Clueless, eric turned to help from snow and subsequently an sms from tiggernapper advising me to search the locker room on family day.

It was a joyous moment when the correct locker was found and tigger retrieved. Eric cried buckets due to emotional sorrow being uplifted upon him. However, valuable lessons on friendship, love and happiness was what Eric took back from this experience. In the end, tigger was found.

This is it people, the story i played in for the past month or so. However, i'm not really that important. The people responsible for such a feat are GERRY and SNOW and OG NOALA. Without them is like eric being on stage, plotless, backgroundless and brainless telling lame jokes. :S Thanks for everything!

2005-02-27T22:46:00.000+08:00

try this out! http://www.quizyourfriends.com/yourquiz.php?quizname=050227094322-942768 and get to know me more!! haha...

2005-02-26T18:12:00.000+08:00

we're all coming back on monday... :D

2005-02-14T19:32:00.000+08:00

Zilin, Zee, Zits
She's cute. :p Too bad she's not in singapore now. Hmmm... i met her right after my break up around july and we just clicked really well. We didn't have much contact before coz of my ex so yea, we because insepratable after we met. We hang out with Ben at Junction 8 and the community centres to mug for O levels most of the time. She has a shetland sheep dog which as everyone now knows, had sex with my leg. Yea... Quite frequently visit her place which is near my sec school. :D Nice friend who i never wanna forget, ever... She’s the one who gave me the baby tigger figurine.. :D

Benjamin, Ben, Ah ben, Ah gong, Ben ben
He's hardworking. Great friend who influenced me to the world of studying till 930 and eat supper together. Thats kinda cool if you think about it. We are the best study palz around and we can recongise everyone at the community center (thats the reason why i could recongise gerry's friend who came up to say hi when NOALA was at J8) haha... well, he is a real joker and we share alot of teacher friends. (not teacher's pets) Well, although mugging is as borring as he made it bare-able for me! thanks ben!

Celina, cel
Know her for 4 years :D We were like the bestest best friends during sec 1 and 2 but something happened : ( Never mind, but we are still close the next 2 years. Mostly she’s a really hardworking and a sweet girl. Gave me the tigger on the panda… Haha, still remembered I had to ASK for it… But she’s real nice to buy me something… :D

Hope I can see my Tigger soon…

2005-02-10T15:02:00.000+08:00

Oh gosh, i don't know about this feeling. Haven't felt it in like 3 years... hmmm... maybe its just infatuation... nvm...

Went back to BPS on tue... Nothing's changed.. Haha.. Anyways, kind peterson loan me 2 biology A levels books with a note "ask me if you've got any questions, i stil pretty updated" How cool is that?? Personal tution PLUS 100 dollars +++ worth of bio textbooks... PETERSON ROX!!!! :D I so totally LURVEEEE peterson!!

You haven't really lived if u have not made someone that you've met in your life breathe a little easier. Thats my passion, to make many others feel easy...

2005-02-06T10:40:00.000+08:00

Things Eric wants to do before i die...

Score well for A levels, get into medical faculty
Wear a Cedar tie
Get a sheltland sheep dog (the one which had sex with my leg)
Get a girlfriend
Get married
Have more than a thousand friends
Be an Emergency Doctor (Those who work in the A&E)
Help people in more then 5 provety stricken countries (hopefully with medical skills)
Save 1000 people while i'm a doctor
Balance my wife and job (haha... lame...)
Pionner a series or naturally occuring drugs to cure or slowing the onset of Cancer
Retire at the age of 50 to continue working on natural drugs
Go around the world thrice
See all the different cultures in the world
Visit hitler's grave so i can spit on it :p
Eat Fugu, lots of Fugu (pufferfish)
Shake hands with Bill Gates telling him that computers are the world's greatest invention
Go to india just to get food poisioning (let myself endure the harshness of the hospitals there)

To be continued next time...

2005-02-04T21:59:00.000+08:00

I just so love wearing a Cedar tie... haha... I keep getting stupid stares from people around... :S First of all the tie is really thin so its hard making a nice triangle (thanks gerry) she helped me make a nice triangle... :D So yea, kinda fun... Gerry was like "take that off pleaseeeeeee...., don't embarrass my school" but stubbon as i am, i wore it on the whole day... kinda fun... :D Been plotting this since the day i met Gerry and knew she was from cedar... haha.... *snickers*

Friday is a stupid day for 14/05... After our breakfast break, its a whole maraton of tutorials and lectures... Means, start with classroom then auditorium, then classroom again then auditorium... we repeat this cycle 3-4 times throughout the whole day... dots... and today gela mei mei injured her leg so... HAAHHAHAHAHAHAH, she suffered :p

Evening when to marina south for bowling and BBQ dinner... Bowling was really funny, i was trying the techniques to get the damn ball spinning so that it'll row really professionally down the aisle... so i kinda did like shit in the first game... But, i regained my steps and bowl quite well the second game *claps* haha... dots... i'm lame... okay enough for today... Thou shalth not be mean to scholars (coz they are pretty smart, acutally super smart to get into s'pore to study)

Oh well if i could only be as smart as them... then there will be peace on earth

2005-02-03T22:10:00.000+08:00

I've been living a few weeks without my watch... yea... And today i just got it back!!! But under really unfortunate circumstances. First my watch "ran out of batt" so i has to send it back to CASIO to replace the stupid solar powered batt. The (ultra dao) sales girl told me it'll be back by the next week but it wasn't and so i got pretty pissed at their service. A week ago, the machanic told me that my solar pannels are spolit and have to be replaced with a heafty pricetag of 50++ dollars and by that stage i was fuming. To top it all off, today they called me just to inform me that my watch's batt is replaced BUT my solar pannels are not done. I feel kinda guilty throwing my anger on that guy but i think he really deserved it. Something that could have taken 2 weeks to complete would now drag 3 months. I was ultimately pissed... so yea... i called the whole thing off and collected my watch today. I really hope it doesn't fail on me.

PS. to that stupid sales girl, i don't think its the price on the watches that drives people away but the disguesting look on your face. I wonder how you remain employed... Haiz...

2005-01-30T16:28:00.000+08:00

ARh!!!! i feel so annoyed... I keep losing things around the college. As you know we have to be walking around looking for our classes hence I KEEP LOSING THINGS COZ I DON'T PACK WELL... haha, i guess i'm being dumb... duh.. lost a bottle, maths homework, my entire file (manage to get it back) whew~

I'm organising this class gathering on the 4th of feb *claps* we're gonna play bowling at marina bay!!! *claps again* But till now no one really responded well yet *stares at the floor* so yea, if you wanna go just sms me or something, date, place, and activity can be changed!! So do come join us or anything... Forget past grudges!! Time to start afresh!! *smilez* Oh well, i've said whats needed to be said...

Lets see... School's been hell for me. Coz i'm not a mugger... haha... Yea, i changed, didn't wanna be a mugger... At least not the first 3 months. Very hard to catch up if you slack behind... My hated subjects are...... Maths is Physics... understood nuts, still not understanding any better...
BUt i loveeeeeee bio. So cool, all those macromolecules and stuff, i like MISS RESMA too!!! she's abit dao but she's super nice :D Oh yea, i love GP too, my Gp teacher rocks! He's so good at it i love the subject to bits... Although he's like strict and stuff, he's got character! YEA! Keeps talking about plolitcal jokes and hates britney speaks thus BS which also stands for.... yea... He's name is Harry Lee. I'm kinda the Chem guy and my chem teacher is kinda cool too... Not like chen though.... ARHH!!!! miss chen's teaching, those students taught by chen at River Valley should count their lucky stars that chen is their teacher!

Oh yea, too my OG grp, i loved u guys to bits and still do into smithereens. Oh yea, my class is getting lively... "thou shalth co-existh with Scholars" yea... hehe :D Class girls are living up too, got to talk and mingle around with them, kinda cool :D They are pretty nice and interesting girls... swee chin likes science and doesn't look like a nerd!!! WHOOO HOOO!!! I love science too and i sure hope i don't look and act nerdy :D

Oh yea, i went to the project Eureka (science club) and its was horrible almost all of the participants are super nerdy, i could smell brain juice... Yucks... If i can help it, i'm not gonna go back there... *wishes wishes wishes*

Oh well... stay tuned to the Amazing (amazingly boring) life in AJ... haha.. i'm craping again...

2005-01-29T16:46:00.000+08:00

This is what goes on in the boring college of AJ... Not really boring but this is an acctual account written by me coz my OG friends went to steal my tigger figurine!!! haha.. enjoy...

14th of Jan Friday...Met up with Cindia, Gerry, Jeslyn in the reading room mugging... Mug mug mug... And then i had to go to the loo so.... loo loo loo. When i returned, i just when back and started to pack my stuff cause everyone's going home soon, so... pack pack pack. I thought everything was happy and fine.... UNTIL...

17th of Jan Monday...First lesson CHEM tutorial... ARH!!!!!!! I finally opened my pencil box after the weekends (i use my table pens at home) and guess what??? My baby tigger, tigger on the panda and panda is missing!!! :( The theift left a note in my pencil box...

"WHAHAHHAHAHAHAH... I stole your tigger figurines, catch me if you can..."

I was so sad, i couldn't concentrate on school the whole day, its like a lover being taken away from you and have gone with another man... :'(

21th of Jan Friday...I looked high and low, asked everyone in my class and OG about my tigger and all i got were puzzled looks and stupid stares (those looks look suspicious) hmmm.... Anyways, yea, I'm soooooo sad my tiger's missing... I'm like crying every night and praying my tigger will come back to me... i miss the smooth plastic its made of, the curves that i run my fingers through, those little kinks where the ears are when i always bite on them... Oh... i miss my tigger so very very much (gary pls rate my literature, maybe i can be shakespear or something) SO crestfallen, i went back home and THEN...

I received an email...
"When You Read This, Be Very Afraid! But...!Please Do Not Panic!Your Tigger is safe 'n' sound in my hands.Of course~ i'll release the hostage when the time comes... ( IF the time comes, that is... )To ensure the safety of tigger, i demand a ransom!Leave 50¢ in the big pot of plant [ 3rd from the left, 2nd from the right ] at block 11. That is the block behind us when we assemble at the AJ square every morning. I didn't say when as in what time, so wait for me to give instructions be4 you carry out the task. Don't act w/o my knowledge.Do not! I REpEAT! Do not dig a hole and bury the coin!! I want to see it lying nicely on the soil... If i do not see my ransom on monday, you will not see your tigger on monday.It's a pretty fair deal, ain't it? yea? *chuckles*well, i'll talk to you again sometime. for now, happi hari raya haji! =)yours sincerely,Tie Â±iGGeR-gappEr"

ARh!!!! my tigger... :( poor tigger... i bet that kidnapper's not giving you the love you need and hold you to sleep everynight!!! MEANIE!!! That night, i slept really uncomfortably...

24th of Jan Monday...The day came and when without a trace of the tigger napper... I begged, borrowed and stole... All for my tigger. Although an impossible feat, i managed to raise 50 cents in the 3 days i had... I borrowed from the loansharks (at first they laughed at my request, but they still loan it to me, hmmm... i wonder why) and then i went to that stupid chem lecturer with that funny sounding accent and stole 5 cents, she was wondering why i did that and threw me 10 more... YAY!!! 15 cents. And then on sunday, i was playing the harmonica at orchard road's underpass from the mrt to tangs, beside me was a guy selling fake LV bags. He eventually had to move his customers to somewhere else coz of my irritance. Yea, i earned another 25 cents on that day. So sad, i only had 2 dollars in my wallet and i was too nervous about the drop off that i didn't had the thought to changing it into small change. So yea, i wanted to drop it off with a note saying... "sorry no change for 2 dollars, you can keep the change" but in the end, no contact was made but i dropped it there anyways... :p

28th of Jan Friday...I recieved a note from billy, its something really funny, i had to ask someone to throw a tissue on my face. so yea... i did that during the movie night and apparently lots of people love to throw THINGS on my face so... throw throw throw... Guojun threw and gave me another clue... Oh yea, before i forget, movie funka was great, couldn't say much about brad through, kena shot in the heel (troy) It lasted from 7 to 10, cool huh??? movie under the stars at AJ square!!! SO BACK TO the story. I managed to complete my first task, to have a pack to tissue thrown on my face... And i got another clue... So yea, i asked gerry for haribo and then i got it and another clue, the next clue WAS to ask that person to splash water on me i got the wrong person so yea, i got wet but no clue....
Oh tigger, i hope you know i'm doing all this for you..

2005-01-22T21:19:00.000+08:00

Noala's blog has finally materialize!!! :D Yay!!! Can you feel the noalaism in the air??? Anyways, yee ting and yu xin are planning a noala outing day on the 29th of jan!!! They are gonna be the main organisers of the event... Anyone who is really interested in helping them out or just wanna contribute, you can just approach either of them and i'll bet they'll be very very delighted :D From what i know, its a beach day at Sentosa with lotsa games and activities. I'm gonna be incharge of the games part so if you have any werid/messy/nonsensical/brainless/lame games let me know kz?? :D

2005-01-19T20:02:00.000+08:00

Haha, i'm now typing this blog entry while listening to a chem lecture. Guess how i'm doing this... Haha, its just a E-lecture that all students should have. Dots... You must be thinking i'm lame. Anyways, today i went for the air rifle trials, it was really competitive, but i manage to get 4 shots into the target out of five. :D And i'm still not sure if thats good enough. I tried my best i wanna get into air rifle :D

2005-01-16T01:38:00.000+08:00

One early Sunday morning, eric woke up from his bed at 9 o clock. He brushed his teeth and showered until 930 and from then one waited for breakfast to be brought back. Soon breakfast came and eric had mee pok and dumplings. Eric ate heartly. Next eric walked around finding things to do and then at 12 did nothing. BORING! DUH!! Hmmm... i would like one of those questionairs that ur have on ur blogs so i can answer lame questions with even more "fractured leg". Care to send me one of those?

I just realised, monday before Chinese new year i got TEST!!!!! ARH!!!! i cannot go back to sec school and meet my teachers... :( maybe i'll pay them visits at their houses.

2005-01-11T21:05:00.000+08:00

Correct me if i'm wrong, our lectures really bore... And our tables are ANTI-SLEEP, they are so extremely sensitive to weight, the slightest shift of the centre of gravity would send our table top contents scattered all over the floor, creating unwanted attention. HAiz... I'm so gonna hang that person who created this potentially commercial table but super uncomfortable... By the time we are done with the JC's 2 years, we would all be amazing acrobatics. Now thats a thought...

I kinda got appointed chem Wrap. So i gotta now make boring rounds to the bookshop and such so its VERY boring. Just wanna thank my friends for waiting and understanding that i've gotta do what i gotta do :p hmmm... i wonder how is my mortal doing, fine i hope :D SMILEZ!!!

2005-01-10T21:49:00.000+08:00

We playing Angels and Mortals. I must had miss out on that part of my childhood because i needed Geradine to actually tell me about it... Haha. Anyways from my first impression of that game, i think it was thought up by some person trying to make life in school more bearable :p I think i need lots of that after attending my first rounds of lectures. I don't wanna say utterly boring but its close. I wish they would start lessons soon or something, i feel pretty guilty not doing much studies...

This thursday i've got to return back to BPS. Sign... They have some CCA fair and i'm supposed to be there for moral support and to show my face. Oh well, i'll just try to make an unpleasant situation lively, i hope...

2005-01-08T22:45:00.000+08:00

6th JAN

Orienation was fun today again, more games and dances, what was really interesting was four of us met up and talked rubbish for like 2/3 hours and i really enjoyed it! haha :D I also got back my pay from mr. peterson, more then i expected, so i'm kinda elated :D

7th JAN

Just received my posting results!!!! YEAH!! Got into class 14. So cool, triple science. Hope i can meet up to their high standards, i really wanna make it this time. Nothing can motivate me more then the wanting to be with the people around me and in a terrific and exceptional school, AJ!
So anyways, we went out as a DWELLING NOALA to the nearby hawker center for AJ ice! Yum! Its really fun to get out with the dwelling, very body seems to be having fun laughing out stomach cramp! After which was a skit put up by selected people in the tribe and i was kinda selected to be the POLICEMAN :P Really had fun during the performance, although we didn't manage to perform at AJ square due to the rain. After the exciting performances, we had a mass dance session and i felt IN as a AJCian coz everyone was doing the dance together enthusiastically! Super fun! It lasted late into the night... Yawns...

8th JAN

From 11am-9pm, thats how long i went out with some of the noala memebers. We got SAM to go out with Lindee! SO happy for him! haha :D He's really lucky to get someone he likes and he should feel fortunate that the guys are backing him and supporting him in this! So yep he finally got to go out with Lindee and had a heart to heart talk with her! :D i'm sure they'll work out just fine... Anyways, we took neoprints and did lots of cool stuff like talking!!! HAHAHAHA, sounds boring i know. But its totally enjoyable doing these with such lively friends! Been a long time since i had so much fun :p

2005-01-05T22:06:00.000+08:00

Subject combination selection was kinda yesterday, i think i got my first choice, triple science. Dots... Gotta starting working hard soon, sign. Orientation was awesome! Well after 2 days you are supposed to get cozy with your group mates which i did, so it was very enjoyable for me.

The seniors are super friendly, even though they weren't in our orientation program, its as if we are regarded as one big family and i can definitely feel the warmth there! So today was a game and dance day and we did both to out heart's content, can't wait to get back there tomorrow!

2005-01-04T19:58:00.000+08:00

If my throat don't go hoarse, it'll be a miracle! Haha. Learnt the AJ clap today! Clap Clap knock, Clap knock knock! So cool! How often do you get to learn something thats unique to the school and makes you part of it ;)

Anyways, had this dance session today. Mambo No. 5!!! And i had the pleasure to partner a cedar girl, she was good at it :p Oh well, all good things have to end.

Today, my resoultion was fulfilled! I managed to learn and remember the rest of my friends names! Yeah! Haha, hope you peepz orientation was as spectatular as mine! Have fun peepz! As for those still holidaying, Happy holidays!

2005-01-03T19:43:00.000+08:00

The spirit of the school is so strong i can feel it in my bones! :p Well, today is day 1 of my JC experience and i'm thoroughly enjoying every moment of it! :D But, i really wish to have less of those weird games, maybe, that's what supports the school spirit. :S

Arrived a tad early today, and had nothing to do till the assembling hour. Met lots of friends within my group, Cynthia, Gary, Malcom, kelly, yuxing, jasmine, yi hong... Gosh, i hope i've got their names spelt right, i'll work on remembering the rest tomorrow!

Anyways, tomorrow is course selection day, we have only one day to make a decision and classes will be formed upon submission of application, WHOA, isn't that gonna be a planning nightmare? Our total cohort makes 920 and we are called AJCians. Its almost like a dream come true to join such a respected family :D

Like always, the English lit teacher possessed a funny bone, bio teacher seems strict, chem teacher even stricter... Scary. What i hate is the leg room between the seats in the auditorium, i'm kinda tall and so my knees are practically touching the heads of the front row collagemates. How embrassing! Anyways, had a fun time... Meeting Peterson for dinner on friday, anybody wanna go? sms me...

Christmas!! And a whole new layout for the next unpredictable but hopeful year!

2004-12-25T22:07:00.000+08:00

Christmas is coming and going... Too bad, this year i don't have a very speical person to celebrate with but i had fun anyways...

23th dec... christmas eve's eve...
Superb day! Had a luncheon with chen. The place he brought us to wasn't a least cheap and had a terrific view of Jurong (industrial area) :p Anyways we talked wholeheartly and the conversation was flowing really well. I gotta remember this as one of the times a conversation did not stop halfways with akward moments... Anways, he graciously paid for our meals and i stress, NOT CHEAP at all. We spend the rest of the late afternoon conversating. Chen passed me some of his fat, juicy and chunky textbooks which i can't wait to devour :p Day ended well... Now spending time reading Cell Microbiology, interesting...

24th dec... christmas eve
Went out with a good friend, had dinner with tris. She's pretty interesting and a great person to be with. Well, we visited plaza singapura and walked to raffles had loads of conversation and she's always so cute in her answers... Haha, makes my heart flutters... :p Not THAT special to me but hey, she a nice person! After that i had dinner with tris at Ah huat BBQ and steamboat restraunt. RESTRAUNT??? Now thats the understatement of the year! its a market place with tables outside to cook your market buffet picks. Totally horrible atmosphere but definitely worth visiting again :D We ended up eating under a tree without much lights, so most of the time i didn't know what i was eating. Oh ya, another thing, its totally oily there. Not for the faint hearted, literally! Ben stood us up, hrmp!
That night, at least i didn't have to count down alone... I'm really thankful for that...

25th dec... christmas day
i'm stuck at home with the whole world visiting, had pizza, crabs and what else do u call delicacies... Hmmm... Had fun playing with my small little cousin. She's so cute, constantly screaming when i chase her... So cute... Happy holidays people!!!

2004-12-18T22:04:00.000+08:00

Now this is artistic... taken at esplanade.. When to the library, couldn't find anymore FHM magazines :p

2004-12-17T21:31:00.000+08:00

i'm just gonna say all the happy things out. First and foremost, tris got a job! He's in the comp industry so its kinda great :D He loves it there and the pay is way beyond peanuts. Really happy for him. He's so much happier away from all the crap from school! He should really have the chance outta school to make his life happy. Its been very long since i've seen him so enthusiatic about something. :D Keep the spirit alive..

And there's the whole bunch of christmas presents on my table, wrapless, boxless, cardless, stampless, and envelopless. I can't force myself to find the time to warp 'em up and post 'em. Before that, i should write something i guess... I'm not too good with words so well... To all those who have received my christmas present or going to receive it, may all your best wishes come true with our ever fulfilling friendship lasting forever! A cliche modified :D

Just received my results today and i was posted to.... AJC. Yep, science course. I keep thinking i'm alone but thats soooo wrong coz there's someone who i know who's attending the arts course in the same school... YEah! Smilez... There are many others who are deserving then me that should have entered AJC... So i hope they don't give up in their future efforts...

MOGU!!!

17/12/04

2004-12-16T22:07:00.000+08:00

Good friends stay together!! I really do hope for of us can take such a photo years down the road... These are extraordinary friends who helped me through my emotional down-turn in their respective ways... My greatest respects go out to them and A BIG THANK YOU FOR BEING AROUND!!! :D

2004-12-14T20:29:00.001+08:00

I got myself a through workout! Pulua Ubin isn't the flat island u may think it is, the long steep slopes are every biker's nightmare... Well today i visited the island and obviously we went biking... The rates there are dead cheap, 6 bucks can get you a decent mountain bike and 10 can get you a high end bike for the WHOLE DAY!!!

As usual, the not too fit eric ended up always trailing Ben and Tristan but the 4 hours we biked together was nothing short of memorable. :) Its become rare for friends to meet up and get outta the city life and experience the wilderness...

Total expenditure for today?

$3.60 for breakfast
$4 for boat ride to and back
$6 for the bike rental
$5.20 for lunch

amount left in my wallet? close to $0

Anyways its totally worth it and i enjoyed every moment of it. Will post pictures when i get them... BEN!! *hint hint*

Another thing, just found out recently something that really pondered my status as a person. Hmmm... It's kinnda depressing and yep, i guess i have to live with it... *all Smiles*
Really hope i don't start off in the wrong foot next year making friends...

14/12/04
Hmmm... i'm kinda confused over emotional problems again...

2004-12-12T17:36:00.000+08:00

MY JOB!!! Is ending soon. Sign... the predetermined amount of work that should take us at least 2 weeks to finish is done in less then 3 days. I'm happy we over exceeded expectations but upset that we weren't paid according to the amount of work we have done, i.e. we are paid 250 instead of the 500 if we took longer to do the same amount of work.
Anyways, i never liked office work, the most boring of them all!

Oh ya, regarding the scanning? You wouldn't believe it but i had it done within 1 morning. Now i know 200 pages isn't alot of work especially when it comes to scanning. However, this only leaves me the hard part of OCR-ing the scanned documents. Its just using this high tech, 400 dollar, peterson sponsored software to turn .jpeg into text.

Happy thing that happened to me today was i received REBECCA'S christmas gift.. Nice.. :p

Unhappy thing that happened to me was that i couldn't find my eagles or scholarship invitation in the mailbox :(

Jealous thing that happened to me was that my brothers when to the bride getting married today's place and got lots of red packets. My share NOT included.

Routine thing that is going to happen to me tonight is that i have to attend another wedding dinner, no wine for me this time! I wonder if they serve Vodka... Hmmmm... Probably not but i'll try and ask.

Something to look forward for me next week is waiting for my volunteer application to tan tock seng to go through, going Ubin cycling with my friends and library with my friend... :)
NEXT FRIDAY IS RESULTS DAY!!

lalalalalalala have fun for the holidays people!

12/12/04
Gosh i still have to get christmas presents for my friends!

2004-12-11T21:08:00.000+08:00

YAH!!! I got myself NEW shoes!!! Nike shox! hehe... I've been wanting to buy adidas for a long time but they always don't come in my size... Sign... Anyways the shoes really rawk! Its red and white :p
By the way, was at queensway buying those shoes and took a MRT back. Sharing the same trunk as me and my mom was this GUY, he's in his thirities and he's blabbering patriotic speeches for Singapore out loud! My gosh, most of the commuters were like wondering whats going on with this guy. However he's not phychotic or something coz his blabbering actually made sense. An example "singaporeans work so hard and still accomdate foreign talent" (something like that) Although he didn't get a standing ovation by those sitted in the train, he sure got lots of singaporeans curious.
This incident's ending wasn't very clear but when i reached Bishan MRT station, this staff from SMRT actually entered our trunk when we alighted and the last i saw, he kinda had some problems with the staff :p
He deserved it! Disturbing the peace!!! But Lee Kuan Yew would be proud of his patirotism...

2004-12-10T14:58:00.000+08:00

Isn't it cool to be paid 50 dollars a day to surf internet? Haha... I'm totally slacking in the office because i'm waiting for the adults to finish their workload and then to pass me mine :P Zee is next to me. Say hi zee!
Zee: "Bye!"
Well thats Zee, crazy as always, i feel kinda guilty to be spending this paid time surfing the internet but guess what, its on 56K modem. Super lag. My boss had to help me type in the password several times before it finally clicked online. Anyways, i'm kinda bored!
Anways time to go, Zee wants to use the comp now, only one comp thats able to access the internet so have to share share! :p

10/12/2004
Hey christmas plans STILL pending
Job request STILL pending
Zee STILL nagging to use the comp

2004-12-08T21:54:00.000+08:00

Yeah!! Today first job day! Was totally cool but the job wasn't :p hehe... Had to do data input at a German wood polishing firm... The pay is NORMAL. The people are OLDER. The task is BORING. But hey! i love the experience. Well, in my book i think this is the best type of job that can be offered to me. So ya, thank God! Anyways... This is the first time i'm earning money and yep, like everyone says, once you start earning, thats the time you stop spending. However, its doesn't apply to everyone *hint hint zee*. Yep Zee was all along with me to make the boredom tolerable, so ya again, THANK GOD! :p Oh ya, must thank Zee also... THANKIE!! I'm gonna still look for jobs, wanna help my friend who is still jobless. I may not know how it feels to apply at job agencies, but i know it can be miserable. So i'm gonna help them!!! *try try try* :) Rebecca says there's no date on my blog entries so i'm gonna put my own dates at the end of my bloggies coz i don't wanna mess with the html codes again... Hey anybody keen in helping me out with my peterson's workload? i mean u'll get the approate pay, it just that i may need help i'm going to keep up 2 jobs at once. Maybe those who are busy finding a job can drop me a line or something so we can discuss more? It'll be home working, no fuss, just time!

12/8/04
Christmas plan still pending!

2004-12-06T21:44:00.000+08:00

this is our chalet... yucks... brings back terrible memories. But one thing's for sure, the X-box game was a killer! Dead or alive extreme beach volleyball... HEY! the female volley ball players with their skimpy swim suits are definitely a must in a chalet. Just look at tristan, notice he's not smiling coz he's on camera. What do u expect, their boobs really shake!

2004-12-06T21:40:00.001+08:00

Christmas is coming! what a nice sight! decorations and everything hung to bring out the festives in me!! Gives me the chirstmasy thingle... Hey anyone of u guys reading this could u invite me for some christmas program? i really do wanna hang out with friends... i know i very shameless like that ask but must be proactive, not sit and wait for nothing!

2004-12-06T21:40:00.000+08:00

Ever wondered if one of these things would fall? Just a thought... :p I mean everyone of us have fantasies, mine is to have someone really special just under one of these dancing to the tune of the music. I hope neither my dancing skills and the chandelier would fail me ;p. well i still kinda miss her... lalalalalala... ITS OVER FORGET IT... anyways, this was taken during prom coz the bugeted program was getting boring...

2004-12-06T21:39:00.000+08:00

Once again words fail me, so i decided to add some totally unrelated pics to aid my talk. like the pic shown, its peterson's dinner! NO CARBO! hehe... Well, i haven't been too happy the past few days, first is the chalet incident... ARG!! Closer friends should know more about it and i have no intention to eleborate. But anyways, its been a great week, i'm practically in and out of my house without notice, i don't know about u but it makes me feel alive, just living life on the fast pace! ER SURGEON!!!

2004-11-21T20:54:00.000+08:00

We are always caught in a dilemma. Before was the wishing that the O levels would just pass away so we can find a life away from books and teachers but presently, i miss both of them. Especially my teachers. Haiz...
I'm so not looking forward to Grad nite. For me, its a decleration of independence from those who have sloughed through 2 years with you. (they definitely sloughed more then us, without doubt) I guess its time to move on.
Leaving means leaving behind. I'm leaving behind a life i don't really enjoy in secondary school. First time in my life i can be hated by half the class people. That's like a major DE-acomplishment for me. Well that's life for you. Well if the people who hate me is reading this, i just wanna say i'll miss you hating me.
Life in secondary school is totally cool for me. First time i'm so attached with my teachers (sorry but i still remain NOT a teacher's pet) and i'm leaving it all behind. Maybe i'll tell you what individual teachers have played in my life...

Miss tan wei Nah:
She's pretty cool, nice looking and everything. But don't let her complextion fool you! She's the most understanding Social studies teacher on earth! EARTH! Gosh i still remember that Miss Lee. I couldn't stand her. For the whole of last year i never passed social studies, and she never did anything to help me with it even though i asked her about my mistakes. But there came Miss tan, she tolerated my horrible hand writing and manage to mark my extra practice papers just to help me improve my Social studies. Furthermore, she even spent extra time during the holidays just coaching me in my sourced based. NOW thats dedication to teaching.

Mrs Lee lay cheng:
Now this is one lady who doesn't give up! She has a spinal problem going on and she still comes to teach us A maths. I can safely say that without her, my a maths is doomed for good. She takes morphine pills and goes to lesson groggy BUT still attends lessons just coz she's worried for us. In my short lifespand on earth, i've never found someone so selfless as her. She's an inspiration, i think even to the teachers as well. To me, she just reminds me that if she's suffering so much inside and still manage to keep working, i've no business resting my ass NOT doing A MATHS.

Mrs koh:
E maths teacher for 4 years and still kicking! She teaches really throughly and makes sure you understand. Maybe not all the time but she tries. She taught me for 4 years and have beared through my usual whimsical ways in class and still manage to squeeze a complement or 2 when i actually do well.

Mr chen :
He is the power house of chemistry! When he teaches, he's dead serious. Seriously humorous! He's like my dad in BPS, or at least i feel this way. I don't know about you but my serious interest in chemistry sort of clicked with his. Well, sort of... Anyways he's super nice, willing to spend his lunch going through with us chem papers. And he is really a nice guy, he inspired me to help others. You people may not know this but he is more concerned about people doing not too well. He works in secret ways, but his intentions are gold and always present. I had the honour in helping him in one of his tutorals, that to me is already the greatest thing i could have done.

Mr Peterson :
He is eccentric. He's nuts. He's got mood swings. He does werid things. But he gets the job done. People like him is kinda rare, he does everything differently without a concern of complications. Well thats supposed to be good... He's also kinda funny, he teaches Bio by the chunk at the starting and during revisions, tell us to forget what he says and study syllabus. Werid... But as i say, he gets the job done. He is super approach-able and if you can be witty enough to get him insulted, you can be his friend too :D Although Bio is his lessons, i took back a more valuable lesson, thats his method of doing things. He inspired me to do things differently from the crowd and that has helped me in my studies! Way to go peterson, at least i manage to get something outta you :p

Miss lim :
She never blows her top! Ever! She's the clamest teacher i know and the friendiest too. Although she's kinda new and stuff she never stops learning. Together with mrs lee, they kinda make an unbeatable Duo in A maths teaching. She's so patient that no matter how many times we ask her the same old A maths question, she'll still answer like its being taugh a fresh. Definitely deserves a standing ovation for her outstanding performance.

Mrs tan shao may :
Behind that ferocious faces hides a comedian. She's the funniest teacher around made funnier with the lack of syllabus for english. English lessons are never boring, we can always look forward to something new and novel with regards to the teaching material and the teacher herself. She injects laughter in everything she does, even after a long hard time diciplining the kids. Thats not easy to manage considering the mood swings she has to force herself to manipulate in a given situation. If superwoman exist, she'll be the mother of all superwomen. Oh ya, she let me get away with my long hair once. Been thankful ever since.

One way or another, these people shaped my life... I only hope to become fractions of them because they are none other then people i look up too...

2004-11-15T20:46:00.000+08:00

memories
lasting in the heart
deeper in the soul

sadness,
easy to forget
hard to get over

happiness
only a moments worth
yet so unforgetable

piece these 3
into 1

and let these lessons
be the fruit of life

2004-11-15T20:32:00.000+08:00

Have got something scary to share with you peepz. One day, 3 friends visited a haunted house, its kinda like a visit with the supernatural. So they packed lots of camera, infrared equiment and such and parked themselves at the ernormous living room. Not knowing the undead is closer then they think. So they we waiting and waiting all night and suddenly their friend ZEE drank her milkshake and became possesed for no apparent reason. Eric was was next to ZEE swinged his cam and caught an image of her in her possessed state... Well lets just say all of them didn't have the appitite to finish their milkshakes...

2004-11-13T22:36:00.000+08:00

Normally passing by people trying to sell things to you seem casual. But what if the person is old, disabled and really short of cash. Along junction 8 there's plenty waiting to extort every cent from you. Sometimes just looking at them makes me feel sad. Its a depressing sight to see them practically begging you for money even chanting their miseries to the passer-bys. Sign...

Today's situation was really horrible. Sharing the streets with them were christian avangelist (people who share christ) I mean its really kinda ironic, don't you think? I'm gonna do my best to work hard to help people in what i do best and love. MEDICINE! :P

I can't bring light to the world, but at least i can bring light to someone living in darkness, just have to take it one step at a time... *God bless these people on the streets, let them find new hope in life...*

2004-11-11T21:07:00.000+08:00

After stupid bio and a good scolding session TO peterson for predicting everything that DIDN'T come out we head to cineleisure for PASTA!!! As u can see i'm being nuts again and Zee's giving that "eric's-nuts-again-look" hehe

2004-11-11T21:04:00.000+08:00

Next we went to esplande to see stars!! its so cool, but no stars. We were just chilling out in the clam gentle breeze of the night's sky, sitting around and talking about ourselves. Think this will stay in my memories for awhile... *ponders* sitting under the night's sky brought back memories of my sec 2 beach BBQ...

2004-11-11T21:01:00.000+08:00

After that we took a long walk down singapore river, this was shot in one of the tunnels... Walking under the stars is so relaxing, really helps destress... I'm really gonna miss times like these next year, especially my bestest friends... SiGn...

2004-11-11T16:43:00.000+08:00

Me and Zee getting wacky again!

2004-11-07T21:12:00.000+08:00

SUPER! Even such a gentlemen's game like pool may result in horrible hazards. An example happened to me. Once upon a time (today) i went to play pool with tristan, and the stupid pool table was horrible (but for 4bucks an hour what can u expect). The balls didn't flow to the collection point smoothly so i ended up finding the ball under the complicated systems of "ball drains". Well obviously tristan had already gotten the ball and didn't tell me but threw it right at me. To me it sounded like this "hey!", 1 sec of slience, "THUD" (followed by excruciating pain on my head) and "thud, thud" and ball rolling.

I was fortunate, no brain damage, no unwanted embrassment, but a whole lot of pain.

No wonder they said not for CHILDREN under 16. By the way tristan is 15. So next time, when they say no patrations below 16, there's probably some truth in it

2004-11-04T21:46:00.000+08:00

looks like i'm eating my own finger but its zee's finger!!! Yum Yum... =p

Your mind is so confused it pisses people around OFF...

2004-10-29T23:24:00.000+08:00

I'm no expert or anything especially after falling out of an unsuccessful relationship but this i can tell ya, love aint a bed of roses. Hey, nobody loves someone else cause he is good in maths or science. Maybe on tv but not in real life and definitely not when you are looking for someone steady to hold on too. Come on, get of the drama serials!!
There's something called materialistic love, means love for money. ie. young woman falling in love with rich old man and there's something called true love. Thats 2 people from completely different backgrounds who just meet up with each other and fall comfortable with each other. Yep you guessed it! It happens like one in a million! No point forcing things to happen, the coercion would just put the opposite person off. Especially friends.
But its definitely great to experience the happyness of being comfortable with another person, you would feel your problems evaporate and you to her's. Its totally magical, but this only happens to selected few. They say "mian qiang si mei you xing fu de" thats so true. So please, your friends are so close to you, everyone is around you but you fail to recongise it. You say your circle of friends is larger then mine, but tell me how many you can talk to when you actually have problems and open up completely? Stop deluding yourself, people can tell when you lie!!! You are not exzactly the best actor, and your motives, feelings, purpose is totally transparent even you try to mask it. It puts people off but as friends we try to ignore it and accept it. But is that your character? If your answer is yes then i tell you you have poor character. I'm always very frank with my words, i'm sorry. I hope you can be like that too to me. But i promise you that if you take a good hard look around, no matter how much you piss us off we are still around and please treaure that, all of us are in it for good for bad, thats what friends are for. You don't need a stead, you need more friends around for support, the stead will just come when fate cross your path with someone special.
Get back down to reality... We are your reality!

Forgotten, really?

2004-10-29T23:01:00.000+08:00

Our minds are amazing, when you want to forget you remember, when determined to remember, you forget. I just can't understand...
Had just listened to this chinese song which moved me to tears, it brought back happy memories but clouded with painful ones. It would be nice to live those memories again, but i guess i should realise that reality has chosen circumstances that impinge this. Well its nice to reminisce once in awhile. Hope fate has more installed for me in the near future. SMileZ

Yep, the name common jasmine orange sounds nice...
But too bad, its not mine to keep.

2004-10-28T17:44:00.000+08:00

Lost bear... This is my one and only picture left of it.. Hmmm... If any of you see this ITS MINE!!! haha...

Posted by Hello

2004-10-28T17:39:00.000+08:00

POOH!!!
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2004-10-26T21:15:00.000+08:00

Lingering on the road sides of the city, finding a purpose for a lost cause. Looking at the world passing you by with amazing speed, just wondering how one could live a racetrack life. People passing you without a second glance, like you are a total stranger to them. Their head filled with much stress and fustration, never once stopping to smell the roses. So this is how we live, by the pace that is set for us. We got to remember to smell the fresh air once in awhile, and savour the fruits of our labour. Becuase when darkness falls, not even the brightest lights can illuminate our greatest acheivements...
Posted by Hello

2004-10-25T22:38:00.000+08:00

this is dedicated too all those who sat for the australian maths competition. I guess i can't find anyone who can honestly say that he or she has acutally worked hard for it (including me) well i guess i just got lucky but anyways its all dedicated to you all =P
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Quit living your life for someone!

2004-10-25T21:59:00.000+08:00

I really had enough of people passing unneccessay nasty comments to every action i do. Hey whats wrong with you people? Have you no creativity to think up of proper conversation topics then to gossip behind people's back?
If there is something that you have to learn to lead a successful and happy life is to live life for yourself. You see, what right do total strangers or acquaintances have to control your life? If you like to eat off the table, be my guest. If you play tennis with a stringless racquet, as long as you hit the ball i wouldn't mind. Hey lets all amit it, somethings that we enjoy doing don't always look pleasing to others.
But i'm not totally faultless, i do sometimes comment of other's "way of life" but don't let my comments or others to hinter your happiness. You have no business living for any other person except yourself.
Next time someone passes a nasty comment on your actions, just smile it off, knowing that that person is probably lving to society's stereostypical standards of being normal and is probably lving a boring, dull and unmeaningful life! Cheers to all those to have the courage break out of the norm

Lies, all a pack of lies!

2004-10-21T20:17:00.000+08:00

I just don't understand why are there such people who exist! The keep lying and lying and think they can get away with it. (sorry lai ing) You see once lesson twice fool! Yep i'm the FOOL to be lied over and over again. Maybe because i'm just too emotional and she takes that as a weakness. Well its not going to work this time, say anything you like and do anything you want to! You are a free person with your own aspirations (or the lack of it) so get of my back and quit bugging me with all those sweet lies. I've grown up to know they are nothing but empty promises.

My answer is no. It ain't gonna change, just like your mask attitude, wear that mask for life, you earned it!
Get of my back, you ain't gonna change.